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Vino is a secksy/ insane man....betch...dude
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« on: May 27, 2009, 11:35:21 pm » |
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My bf might be bi-sexual...this has been bothering me for months, I mean if your bf/gf liked both boys and girls and you were really really really really really obsessed up with them, wouldn't you get nervous with them spending time with anyone else? (I think Andrew knows what I mean xP)...right now I'm shaking and feel like I'm gonna throw up because he's so convinced that I don't love him, that I'll end up cheating on him, that I'll live him, for 3 months I've been slowly convincing him that it's not true...because it's not, I love him with all my heart, he's truly the love of my life. He says if I ever break up with him he'll kill himself, which I really think he will do...because he's so depressed, I'm the only thing that's keeping him from killing himself, so whenever he thinks he made me mad or sad or is bothering me, he automatically assumes I'm gonna break up with him, and then when I say i'm not going to he says I just don't want to hurt his feelings, so he'll make it so I won't have to break up with him and he'll just kill himself. This happens like 4-5 times a week, he has me in tears 4-5 times a week...and it's not like I can stop him, he lives in Staten Island and I live in Virginia...we can't even be together for 3-4 years...but we've been in love for 4 years, so we were gonna wait, but he thinks I'll find someone better before then, and I'm sure he'll find someone better, I mean, he lives in New York...there's tons of chicks there that are better there, he can't even look at me or touch me, do you expect a adolescent boy to be able to wait that long without humping something? Anyway, he used to not be perverted, he never even thought about sex and sex made him scared until he about a month ago, and I'm sure it had something to do with me...but nao he's always **** and it's not like he can even kiss me :/ plus he's bisexual, and I'm homophobic, and he says weird things like "Ohhh, I'm such a pretty girl" or "I want to wear [my] clothing" and "Dresses look so gewd on me" and it's scaring the shiat outta me T_T i mean, I love absolutely everything about him EXCEPT that, it just had to come and ruin my relationship. I love him so much it hurts and I feel like I have to break up with him >.< but i can't because then he'll suicide and i'll never love anyone again, and i'll probably end up killing myself too over guilt/heartbreak...I mean, our love is like, unhealthy T_T we text eachother 17 hours a day *the other 7 for sleeping* and if I stop texting him for more then 10 minutes he thinks I'm dead or ignoring him, then goes to kill himself T_T love sucks soooooo bad!
our relationship is really unhealthy x.x it's slowly killing me, yet it's the only thing that I truly care about and that's keeping me alive...and yet it's killing me x.x
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